This has been a bumpy ride for me, but I’m working on my faith every day.
I’ve had to make some big changes in the past couple months. Changes I did not want to have to make. I had invested a lot of time and effort all to feel backed into a corner in making decisions I did not want to have to make. I did not want to let these situations go and was clinging to them for dear life. I thought they were my dreams. I kept thinking if I keep investing my time and effort they’d eventually work the way that I wanted them to work.
I’m at a point where I made necessary changes that I didn’t want to make and I’m only a couple weeks in. When I first made the changes, I had come to the belief and knowing that God wanted me on a different path. I didn’t know what that was, but did have a clue. I’m basically winging it, praying a lot, trying to hear what He’s telling me, trying to follow where He’s guiding me, even though I do not see complete sense in it. Like the Bible tells us in Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your paths.”
Last night I reverted back to feeling like a victim of this world, having to let my dreams go. I shed some tears and laid some blame. A downright pity party. This was me, tired and after a week of focusing on my job, forgetting that God is guiding me to where He wants me to be. But then I remembered the night when He calmed me and showed me a little of how my life would be better making certain changes. He put me at a job so I’d have a stable income, so I’d have less financial stress and some time to focus on writing about Him and creating art. I do not know this for sure and am prepared to take a different direction if He directs, but it’s what I’m feeling He’s trying to work in my life right now.
We need to have faith that when things are changing and there’s nothing we can do about it, it’s God correcting our path. He knows what’s best for us more than we do. He’s smarter than us and we are here to serve Him, not ourselves. That’s tough to grasp when we are trying to find happiness and survive in this world. We think we know what’s best for us and pursue it only to find out, it’s not and we have to have faith He’s guiding it all. When something is not working out, perhaps it’s God re-directing us to what He wants. Jeremiah 29:11 tells us: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” We just need to have faith in this and do the best we can in following Him.
I’d love to hear your comments below. Have you had to make changes you didn’t want to make, requiring faith in God? Have you gotten through the storm to an understanding of what He wanted of you? Please share.