I’ve been writing a lot about focus and that’s because the past couple of years I’ve had major life lessons that showed me very directly that if I continued living the way that I was, I’d continue to spiral down in anxiety and depression.
I’ve read about energy healing work in the past but I don’t think I truly got it. The lessons I learned made me understand, and I’m glad I went through them because now I’m beginning to see the effects. The effects are not so much in the material world (yet), but that I feel so good. I believe that because I feel good that the material effects will materialize in time. I feel it’s good progress because it’s been a bumpy recovery. I will sometimes find myself slipping back into anxiety and/or depression (due to worry or overthinking) and will have to work myself back to being focused and present, but I can stay there for a longer time now.
Before I went through these lessons, I would get tossed around by whatever was going on in my life. I had a boyfriend that didn’t treat me right. My mom has cancer and I’d worry about her and my dad. I was self-employed and couldn’t focus on my work or how to improve it so it would be a success. All I could do was obsess about whatever drama was going on while living life on auto-pilot. I felt like things were happening to me, but they were all situations I chose to be in or chose how to react.
I chose to try over and over again with the boyfriend. I chose to feel like a victim when something went wrong. I chose to worry about everything and everyone. I was consumed by all of this. All my energy was spent on situations that didn’t serve me.
It got to the point that I had to go to work because my business failed, my house was a disorganized mess (I did clean and straighten daily, but pushed things aside for when I had time to deal with it and it added up), and I was an emotional mess. I was not happy.
But I’m glad I went through it because I wouldn’t have learned to understand energy so well.
I realized that because I was always overthinking everything, there was no room in my head for new ideas, creativity, new dreams and goals, inspiration. I was so in my head that I was like a zombie and didn’t even notice beautiful things happening around me. Who knows how many opportunities passed me by. So instead of moving forward with dreams and hopes, I was spiraling down into anxiety and depression.
It’s SO important to notice what we think about and how we spend our time. If we are present and working on our dreams, then great! But if we are constantly anxious, worried or depressed, we should become aware of how we are thinking and spending our time, then work on ways to think differently and that will serve us. I’m not saying it’s the cure to anxiety and depression, because I don’t know all there is to know about them, but I do know that it helped me.
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