Two days ago I got a message from a guy I used to date wanting to ‘cuddle’.
Yesterday I got a message from my ex-boyfriend.
I’m not entertaining either one because both men have toxic qualities and are in the past for a reason.
I’m trying to heal my childhood issues that led me to dating men with toxic qualities and I do believe progress has been made because I have no desire for either of these men anymore.
I believe they contacted me due to their loneliness and not being able to live their normal toxic lifestyle with the stay-home order. They cannot handle being alone. I’d rather be chosen for other reasons – like I’m the full package deal.
I’m not here to relieve anyone’s loneliness. I’m here to be in relationship with people that offer mutual care, support, friendship and love. These men have not been here for me and were not there for me when I was seeing them – they were energy vampires – and out of the blue want to get intimate? What a joke. For me, anyway. I do understand there are people that are ok with only getting their sexual needs met and there’s nothing wrong with it if that is your thing. It’s just not my thing.
Yes, progress has been made in healing my childhood issues because it wasn’t that long ago that I probably would have settled for being treated as a loneliness filler. I probably would not have even recognized (or ignored) they were trying to fill a void and I would have been thrilled with the bread crumbs of attention, especially during this time with the social distancing and living by myself.
Nope, not anymore. Been through too much chaos, heartache and misery due to my poor decisions when it comes to accepting bad behavior from men. I’ve also been happier than ever following my passions, dreams and goals.
I deserve better.
One last thought, what are singles doing about their dating life during social distancing? This is the first I thought about it. I’ve not been thinking about romance and dating at all until this. Seems people would not want to be risking getting or spreading the virus, but are they? Does anyone know? It was another thought I had with these two contacts – how do I know if you’ve been protecting yourself and not carrying the virus anyway?
Would love to hear your thoughts on this subject. Hope everyone is healthy and safe.
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