Been using much of my energy on fillers.
Doing things that steal my inspiration and waste time.
I go to work, come home, eat and straighten the house, then watch Youtube.
This past week I’ve been on vacation. Actually a staycation. I let myself go to the casino and since I won a little money I did some retail therapy.
But my intention for this vacation was to get my life back in order. Instead I feel like I frittered it away on unproductive things.
This has not been fulfilling at all. I want to get back to feeling excited and inspired. Taking actions towards my dreams.
But I haven’t had the energy or inspiration.
I’ve been going through a couple things in my life that require healing and I think the fillers are a way to avoid the emotional pain, or at least space it out.
We need to feel the pain to heal.
Thankfully I’ve been going through this filler thing for a couple months now, spacing the pain out. Hopefully this cycle is coming to an end.
I feel in a little better space lately so I will try again today to get my mojo back.
So many things need doing. So many goals I’ve been putting off. Not sure where to start. Scattered.
But I’m going to take it easy on myself because I know I’m where I should be and it’s getting better.
Slowly I’ll work myself out of this mess and get my life back in order and working towards my dreams. It feels a little overwhelming right now.
But I do feel I’ll begin to make progress now since I am feeling better.
Just wanted to share in case anyone can relate. If you have thoughts or advice on this, please share in the comments. Thank-you!